Pada akhirnya

Pada akhirnya, entah kapan itu,
kamu akan berhenti.
Rasa lelah yang kamu rasa akan menjalar hingga ke jantungmu,
menggerogoti seluruh sukmamu,
kemudian hatimu melebur menjadi abu.

Lalu apa yang tersisa?
Hanya aku yang terdiam di pojok,
sambil menunduk,
dan berharap kamu kembali.

"at once I knew, I was not magnificent."


Until later, rainy night.

Sunday, October 2.

It's a good thing, to know, that you're not a part of today's society. They're just too awful, and heartless too. Everyone walks with their own ego and start ignoring their own circle. Actually, I hate to tell you the truth about this mass of emptiness called society. But you see, it's just me trying to help myself with my own writing and hope you guys read my thought.

I was sitting in a (let's just call it) bar-chair alone, mingling with my own demon, expecting things to happen so soon. And then, soon enough after I watched the rain pouring down, I started to think about the life itself; a game of living as a human-being, a person who are about to face a true disaster of their own journey. I was thinking about me, stranded somewhere with no one I didn't even know, and how I could save myself in those kind of circumstances; how to get a life.

The rain stopped pouring when my coffee was finally arrive, and there was me, still sitting next to no one, trying to ignore everything around me completely, and started to think about the future. For me, the afterlife was really not existed. It was just a thought of human who was so desperate of not having a worth-living life. I was drowning too deep with my own thought and I was so in love with it; the idea of a catastrophe that is about to come. So I chose to runaway somewhere I didn't even knew, just to make sure that I was okay.

So yea, let's have a good coffee and a deep talk until the sun rises again, shall we?


Bali, August 2016

Last August I spent the whole month traveling alone to Bali, wishing I could just found myself once more. Things were not doing good these whole three months. I was drowning with my own thoughts and I was feeling neglected. But yes, life must go on, so I chose to move on.

Well, actually all I want to do is post some picture I took while I was there. So, enjoy.
Nusa Penida

Nusa Penida

Nusa Penida

Nusa Penida

Nusa Penida

Nusa Penida

Nusa Penida






Thanks for taking this picture




First Introduction


So basically, my post today is going to be me, describing me, and telling you every little aspect of me.

It's Ezy, well at least people used to call me Ezy back then when I was in high school and I actually kinda like that nick name rather than mine now, but that's okay anyway. I'm 21 years old. Born and raised here in Surabaya and I love this city more than you've ever known. Currently being an undergraduate student majoring cultural & social anthropology. I'm desperately in love with music, especially alt-rock, shoegaze and metal. I spend most of my spare time DIY-ing and playing guitar, or just reading books. Oh! And I also a movie enthusiast. I also have a great family and a lovable boyfriend. I am surrounded by great peoples who have big hearts and great mind. I am so proud with all of them.

My friends mostly say that I'm not like another. Such a one of a kind. I am not a kind of person who do make-ups everyday, go shopping with girls, do spa and stuffs related with it. I consider myself as a person who love to be smart rather than beautiful. I travel a lot. I spend most of my time wondering and wandering; wondering about what is really going on, and wandering to place I've never been into. I met a lot of cool people. Some of them basically do travel for living, some of them are surfers, divers. I learn a lot from them.

And also, I have a plan; do a hitch hiking around Java. You guys want to come? Mail me! I'd love to have a person to share the beauty of Java itself.

I think that's all about me, for another deep talk, you can just simply contact me.

Cila, or Ezy x


Movie Review: The Shawshank Redemption (1994)

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I still remember the very first time I saw this movie which is like, I don't exactly count it but I guess, two years ago. And from the very first time I saw it, I was so in love! Believe it or not, this movie had that kind of tense you would never imagine. This movie is still listed on my top 100 good-movie-all-the-time.

This movie tells the story about Andy Dufresne (Tim Robbins) who is accused of his wife's murder and sent to Shawshank Prison to serve his sentences even he tried claiming his innocence. Frank Darabont successfully brought this movie up to the top; not too tough for those who are still new in movie thingy, but not too tender for a movie-enthusiast. The plot was more than I've ever expected from any movie, like, you wouldn't even stop watching it even for a second. The twist was fine but undeniably epic. I treasured every aspect of this movie, and for that, I gave them 8/10.

And by the way, here is the trailer. Sorry if I put the wrong trailer.

And as any other great movie, let's move to metacritic.com. They gave this movie 80/100 based on 19 critics and 9.3/10 from imdb.com. From rottentomatoes.com, this movie got 98% of audience score.

Well, I guess, that's all. Sorry for a bad review and really late post. I just got home anyway. Ehe. So, enjoy your day! Goedenacht!